They told me the curse was a kindness,
a spindle’s prick to spare the kingdom
from the burden of my broken mind.
“Let her sleep,” they said,
“Her thoughts too sharp, her tongue a thorn,
her dreams too vast for walls to hold.”
But I did not sleep.
Not in the way they meant.
In my cage of roses, I lay awake,
each thorn a needle threading whispers:
What if the curse was never kindness?
What if the silence wasn’t mercy?
What if my dreams were a forest
they feared to enter?
I grew wild there.
The briars were mine.
When the prince came, blade in hand,
I laughed to see him bleed--
for once, the world bent to my thorns.
He begged for a kiss to break the spell.
Instead, I offered him my dreams:
a tangle of shadows too sharp to untie.
Let him sleep now.
Let him know what it means
to carry a forest inside.

I was always the broken one,
a jagged shard of mirrored light.
The fairest of them all--
but they never told me
fairness was a curse.
When they laid me in the glass coffin,
the dwarves wept salt that carved
rivers in their faces.
They did not know
the coffin was not a tomb
but a lens.
Through it, I saw the prince’s approach,
his perfect features fractured
by the warped glass.
I saw the cracks in his smile,
the pity behind his eyes.
I saw myself as they saw me:
a body polished and preserved,
an object too fragile to touch
but too pretty to let go.
So I shattered the glass
with my unkissed lips,
cut my way out of their story,
and left the prince bleeding on the forest floor.
He called me wicked,
but wicked is just what they name us
when we break the molds
they cast us in.
I wandered until I found a mirror
that didn’t lie.
And in its broken face,
I saw my own reflection--
whole at last.

I chopped off my hair after the last prince. He only wanted what all princes want. The good talk ended right after his climb. I pushed him out the window while he gazed at what he could no longer reach. He only broke a few bones. Healing imperfection will humble him. I’ll weave a blonde rope and climb down.

Would you measure a warrior’s worth
by the rewards they’d earned
or the trophies they’d spurned,
by the number they’d slain
or the many they’d spared;
praps you’re persuaded by the songs
of their kin who survived them.
Or you’d celebrate their renown
and vaunted prowess in battle
when it is really those without
such advantage who show more
courage in not fleeing the field
when outmatched by every other foe.
See – it is those of whom you’ve not heard
that might more truly deserve
your prayerful thoughts and earnest hymns
your hushed tales, be they ever
so tall, by the warming hearth
of our time-wearied feasting hall.
Would you have me tell you their names
though your lips are unworthy
to speak them, your ears deaf
and your mind too dull to grasp
what it genuinely is
to have known Thorin Oakenshield,
last of his ancient and noble line.

Pinocchio was born into poverty in desperately bleak times,
he was the eldest of ten children, half human, half scavenger,
always battling illness and hunger, barely living, just surviving,
on a long narrow street which didn’t allow natural sunlight.
 
Pinocchio was forever dreaming about being made of pine wood,
so he wouldn't have to be hungry and thirsty all the time.
His angry ugly rumbling tummy gurgled and guzzled and gobbled
him up, all up. He longed for a blue magical fairy to save him.
 
Instead, he was sent far, far away, to ease the burden on his parents, 
to live in a village with his mother’s family. All he ever wanted
was to see his mother again, to feel at home again, to be healthy,
happy and not have to suffer so many ordeals, over and over again. 
 
Pinocchio’s journey was full of terrible trauma, so much tragedy,
so much sadness, even the fabulous adventures made him sick.
The world was so beautiful but also so dreadfully ugly, it made him wish
all the more to be a wooden pine puppet living in a better world.
 
In his dreams he saw the magical Blue Fairy, who gently whispered:
Prove yourself brave, truthful and unselfish,
and someday you will be a true real puppet.
A boy who won't be good might will never be made of wood.
 
Pinocchio tried and strived to be brave, truthful and unselfish,
he tried not to wish for the moon, the oceans and the stars.
He gave so much to everyone, helped and helped till he couldn’t give
any more. Exhausted he slumped down, despondent and scared.
 
He felt sick down to his stomach at this terrible world, only in his
magical dreams of fairies did he see a way through, Oh, Fairy, Fairy!
Why am I still not made of pine wood? I’ve been brave, truthful and unselfish.
And Blue Fairy smiled so warmly and whispered, You already are.
 
And Pinocchio wept and wept with traumatised joy, sadly unaware that
whilst he was away, his family suffered tragedy as six of his siblings died.
Pinocchio was the lucky one to escape, to be free, but he never saw
his mother again, never spent one perfect day together, never was home.

About the author:
Peter Devonald is a UK based poet/screenwriter who has lived with disability most of his life. He is winner Waltham Forest Poetry 2022, Heart Of Heatons Poetry Awards 2023 & 2021, joint winner FofHCS 2023 and second in Shelley Memorial Poetry 2024. Finalist in Tickled Pink ekphrastic contest 2024, highly commended Hippocrates Prize and Passionfruit Review 2024, shortlisted for OxCanalFest Poetry 2024, Saveas & Allingham 2023. Poet in residence Haus-a-rest, Forward Prize nominated, two Best Of The Net nominations and widely published including Broken Spine Anthology, London Grip, Door Is A Jar, Bluebird Word, Vipers Tongue, Voidspace and Loft Books. 50+ film awards, former senior judge/ mentor Peter Ustinov Awards (iemmys) and Children’s Bafta nominated.
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A little child locked in the airing cupboard,
spiralling music plays to evoke the magical,
but all the little child feels is trapped.
 
Outside the older sister laughs to see such fun,
playing at her own little fabulous fairy tale,
lost in her bewildering imagination, never stops
to wonder at the damage done.
 
Fifty years on the child still hates confined spaces,
the fabulous music still the soundtrack to his dreams,
persecuting and prodding with a witches spell.
 
He lived in fairy tales all his life, wrote himself better,
but always witches watched, whispered and cackled.
 
He wondered why his sister ate the poisoned apple,
slept for a thousand years, supressing the past.

About the author:
Peter Devonald is a UK based poet/screenwriter who has lived with disability most of his life. He is winner Waltham Forest Poetry 2022, Heart Of Heatons Poetry Awards 2023 & 2021, joint winner FofHCS 2023 and second in Shelley Memorial Poetry 2024. Finalist in Tickled Pink ekphrastic contest 2024, highly commended Hippocrates Prize and Passionfruit Review 2024, shortlisted for OxCanalFest Poetry 2024, Saveas & Allingham 2023. Poet in residence Haus-a-rest, Forward Prize nominated, two Best Of The Net nominations and widely published including Broken Spine Anthology, London Grip, Door Is A Jar, Bluebird Word, Vipers Tongue, Voidspace and Loft Books. 50+ film awards, former senior judge/ mentor Peter Ustinov Awards (iemmys) and Children’s Bafta nominated.

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Instagram: @peterdevonald
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Ella Enchanted couldn't get the Glass Slipper on,
let alone imagine dancing the night away until midnight;
swollen feet and broken dreams, she stayed indoors and slept
her life away. Her Fairy Godmother gave her beautiful dreams,
of coaches made of pumpkins, horses that once were mice,
footmen who were all lizards and a coachman who remains a rat.
Her dirty rags transformed magically into a beautiful dress,
an amazing hallucination dream, where everything is possible.
Night terrors they call it, night sweats, another symptom in a land
where illness is queen, but what of her handsome king, waiting?
Another day another symptom, spinning webs of falling dreams
from worn down spindles, so much pain to be a sleeping beauty,
horrible power of invisible diseases, creeping, crawling, crying,
wishing on a purple star, one day she’ll find her happily ever now.

About the author:
Peter Devonald is a UK based poet/screenwriter who has lived with disability most of his life. He is winner Waltham Forest Poetry 2022, Heart Of Heatons Poetry Awards 2023 & 2021, joint winner FofHCS 2023 and second in Shelley Memorial Poetry 2024. Finalist in Tickled Pink ekphrastic contest 2024, highly commended Hippocrates Prize and Passionfruit Review 2024, shortlisted for OxCanalFest Poetry 2024, Saveas & Allingham 2023. Poet in residence Haus-a-rest, Forward Prize nominated, two Best Of The Net nominations and widely published including Broken Spine Anthology, London Grip, Door Is A Jar, Bluebird Word, Vipers Tongue, Voidspace and Loft Books. 50+ film awards, former senior judge/ mentor Peter Ustinov Awards (iemmys) and Children’s Bafta nominated.

www.scriptfirst.com
Instagram: @peterdevonald
Facebook: @pdevonald
Twitter/X: petedevonald

​‘We have come to the utmost position of the development.’-
The evening with the ruction. (May go far the camel without cactus.)
The owl looks at the watch and finds a watch dozing at the square
With rushing vehicles and advertisements
And then the come-hither in the moribund city.
(The city has been a rubber stamp of the robust canker.)
And gets tapped and trapped a lone womb in the seminar hall.
And after that gets glorified white fluid.. white fluid…white fluid.
Yet
Swims, no doubt, the vendetta in the slurred utterance.
Yet
The cruel significant of technology in the basement shows on its broken teeth.
And at the threshold cries the petal of a white rose.
(The morning is too obscure to identify the wrinkles of the bastard.)
‘And there will be no ending of the flow of dry corpses.’
Thinking so throws the last sign of cancer in the air Satan.
 
Is there no comeuppance since then?
 
Have you met any of it in the chained rendezvous? 

​I’m tired of all the prayers and the apologies
People who care tell me I need to stop
apologizing, but for once—-I am Not The One
Apologizing. Not apologizing for my existence, as
one of my close friends always tells me.
Stop apologizing for existing. But, how can I stop
when everyone seems to want to tell me that they are sorry for me?
I don’t want your prayers or your ‘fake apologies’, because
“the world doesn’t end, it just feels like it does.”
I don’t know who I’m supposed to be when everyone
keeps using their teacher pointer-finger to tell me that
something is wrong with my body.
My entire life, my own father asked me what was wrong with me,
but not because he cared. I stopped having an answer to give people
whenever they asked me this. When will people stop pointing their finger
At Me? I’m not a circus attraction, I’m a human being.
You’re sorry that this ‘happened’ to me? If someone else tells me this,
I will fucking flee! I’m tired of the fake sympathy and the fake apologies.
I’m tired of the unrealistic optimism—the unrealistic words that “maybe you will outgrow it.
Sometimes if you are diagnosed when you are younger,
you will outgrow it by the time you are old.” Just stop.
Just fucking stop. Just stop with the stares, the prayers, and the apologies.
I’ve expected the mourning of my own body, so why can’t you?
Why do you feel the need to heal me? I don’t want to be healed
and I didn’t ask for it. "But, does the world really end?
They say it just feels like it does. But, would I actually rather be me?"
Who is this version of me that everyone else sees? Who is she?

Quotations in italics taken from the song, ​"I'd Rather Be Me', from the Mean Girls Musical.